An Old Thought : A Slow Ride
Today, Co-Star’s reminder read: “You feel better when you feel part of something bigger.”
A few years back, in the midst of teenage craziness, underage drinking and endless drama, I said to my friend, Daisy Bailey -
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“I want to be part of something BIG, just like the stars are to the Universe.”
It’s cosmically wounderful how words I spoke in the past (even if I was obliterated when I first said them), today reveberated back to me through the stars themselves.
I have been feeling nostalgic for old Love, past feelings and memories of what life used to be like…
And if I don’t feel nostalgia, then I find myself wondering where I’m headed.
An avoidance of listening to the present. Forgetting the language of my body, the knowledge of numbers and history. There is a past that co-exists with you that belongs to your ancestry, and it must be acknowledged to understand your present self. There is also wisdom in believing in a future because you’re recognizing the ability to change. Yet the presence of expression -from ear to mind, and sometimes mind to mouth, mind to hand, is unequivocally the embodiment of the kinetic and energetic flow that surrounds us. We study it in nature, we study it in music, and we notice it in humans. For your body to exist and breathe an energetic connection must be established- between brain and body. So, how could we ignore its connection to the way we action, develop, grow and create? -
“The HEAD, by the way of the EAR, to the SYLLABLE
THE HEART, by the way of the BREATH,
to the LINE.”
- Charles Olson
Today, I shook it all out dancing. The freeing ecstasy of moving, stretching, losening up one’s body is to let energy move through you, e-motions to pass and welcome the present. Movement releases and connects you to the present. There is many lessons to learn from past selves, past experiences, but they charge the body with unnecessary baggage that no longer has an owner. The future brings a lot of hope and excitment, but its tenses up the body and clogs up its True unravelling with stress.
There is a sense of ‘feeling lost’ still within me. I am afraid of the unknown and yet I seem to want to stand at the edge of the cliff to see all its endless perspectives. The possibilities that come to life when one imagines.
So today, I feel grateful to have the ability to breathe and simply observe the large pine trees that stretch tall out in my balcony.
It’s a warm, sunny afternoon. I brought a asweater with me thinking I'd need it.
The sun still shines trough the trees’ crowns.
Sublime is playing the background and it made me think of the importance of a Slow Ride. A move ofthe hips - slow and sensual. To let life flow, Wei-Wu.
I’m coming back in attunement with my body and its helped to release burdens and allowing me to absorb new teachings, new possibilities, welcoming in change because there is room for it. I am no longer clogged by the past, even if it still sits next to me while I write this.
This thought was written in earlier months of this year, and it wasn’t until today that I managed to find some deeper understanding of it. It reminded me of the beauty of coming back to yourself, to your body, to your alma-self (or the ‘Over-Soul’)1.
Soon I will be sharing some more of the things I have been learning and about this idea of ‘The Oversoul.’ How Emerson’s ancient thought (almost two centenials ago), is still relevant today.
For now, enjoy the slow ride of the present.
Term coined by Ralph Waldo Emerson through his essay, ‘The Oversoul’.